Day 2... a little better but not what I hoped it would be

So today I ate 4 chicken nuggets at 3:30pm and a small salad at 6:00pm. Drinks for the day included one regular coke, a 16 oz bottle of lemonade, and water.
My period brought about a massive amount of irritability and I wanted to slap just about everyone at work, though they hadn't done anything wrong. I got really dizzy from the pain in my back, and the pain from my cramps. I worked for around 9 hours, so I was on my feet running back and forth from front of the store to the back all day. So I guess, 9 hours of slow cardio would count as my workout. Not much to speak of today.

Day 1 of...The rest of my life?

So today was supposed to be the day I started my life changing plan. I was going to have a sensible breakfast, lunch and dinner, and hope that I would begin my fitness regimen. Starting out at 222lbs, I hope to lose 72-80lbs by the time my Masters recital is here. Unfortunately, a terribly long Dr.'s appointment yesterday and getting my period kind of threw me off in my goals. With a little over two hours left in this evening, maybe I can do some yoga on the WiiFit Plus. I had to fast this morning to get blood work done, so by the time I was able to eat, all of my healthy eating will power had gone by the wayside. I feel rather idiotic. I mean, just because I had to start late, and I decided to bail on the diet plan all together? *sigh* By the time I was able to eat I had an apple spice muffin with strussel on top. It was good, but I probably should have waited until we were actually sitting down to eat. My...brunch menu was as follows

Stir-Fry Beef with Low sodium gluten-free soy sauce, pepper, and spicy stir-fry marinade
Gluten free spiral noodles
Bird's Eye Steam Fresh mixed vegetables with broccoli, carrots, baby corn, and Asian inspired spices.

I then proceeded to fall asleep, and then I went shopping. I didn't buy anything, but all of those cookbooks were staring me in the face. I just wanted to buy all of the "Cooking for Diabetes" "Healthy Food, Healthy You" "Heart Healthy Desserts" and various other titles that implied a healthier lifestyle. However, not having the money to throw down on such things, I just left the store without making a purchase.

After moving out of my parents house, I had already changed my diet, and I thought it was for the better. I switched to fresh veggies, instead of canned. I changed from white to wheat/whole grains. I changed from Country Crock to Smart Balance with Omega-3s. I even went from Whole milk to Skim, or Almond Milk. I didn't think this was such a bad choice, and even my activity level was rising. So why then, was I not going anywhere in terms of dress size or numbers? Why had I maintained the same size from High School, through Undergrad, and now through Graduate School? I don't want this to happen. I don't want to be forced to purchase a plus-sized wedding gown. I don't want to get diabetes, high cholesterol, heart disease, cancer, or high blood pressure. I hope I can find the external motivation. The internal is there.